But right now, tonight, as I stare at my packed suitcase, it's hitting home that I have to leave my husband and daughter for three weeks to go back to Sydney for work.
I'm not sure how I will handle this. I'm not sure how they will handle this. I know we will all survive it. I know there will be no lasting (emotional) scars.
I'm just wondering how Ms P will handle me not being here for a meltdown. Or her need for mama hugs. Or her laugh and story of the day or...argh.
I know every mama out there will understand how much I love her. How, in three weeks, so much will happen and change for her. How missing those weeks will mean I can't get those moments back.
How the hell will I handle school and college???
Two decisions made then!
First, I will be more present when I with her. I will put my phone down. I will be in the moment with her. Not every single moment -reality bites - but not half there/half working /face booking or whatever.
Secondly, I will make the most of my time away. Physical, mental, emotional health get prioritised. For her and for me. Marathon training gets started in full force. Time with my soul mate friend Lady S.
I'll be a mama she can be proud of.
Who wouldn't want to be for her!
